I posted this on a whim on IG last week and it got a big response. People tend to share only the pretty pictures and super success stories so when someone posts something that’s actually raw, transparent, and real, it tends to stand out.
Not that I think I’ve done anything special here or deserve some type of kudos for sharing, but to me, it just seems obvious that the truth, what I’m feeling at a particular time or wrestling with is just easier to write about because I don’t have to make it up.
I’m experiencing it. It kinda writes itself.
Plus, I don’t have to worry about not remembering what I’ve made up or postured about that may or may not be “entirely accurate” or representative of what’s really going on in my life.
So, here ya go…
- I’m very self-conscious about my left eye – it droops from an aneurysm/blood clot I had in my twenties. It’s the only thing I see in pictures, why I wear sunglasses as often as possible and take most pictures not looking directly at the camera.
- I pee sitting down quite often. I’m always on the go, always on my feet, my legs are constantly sore and this is one of the few times during the day I can sit down, relax and take a moment.
- I shave my head every Friday. I used to shave it on Sundays and then realized that I’m outside all weekend, training, with the kids and doing whatever and that when I shaved my head on Sunday the top of my head would be white and my face would be tan.
- I cry almost daily. Could be a song, something my boys do, a movie, or a commercial. I love the sad, sappy, inspirational shit.
- I like violent activities. Boxing, combative, shooting, throwing around heavy shit. Love it all and the idea of using strength and force to protect people.
- I am extremely loyal & trusting. However, trust but verify. If I verify you can’t be trusted, we’re done.
- I don’t like to read. I’m always getting books and looking at magazines but rarely finish anything.
- I love writing but I have trouble sitting down to “write” so I talk instead. I use voice notes or Otter and then transcribe so I constantly look like I’m talking to myself. I’ve written 146 newsletters, 2 guides, and a forthcoming book this way.
- I want to move to the beach. Someplace like Cabo or Costa Rica, live off a fixed income, wake up, drink coffee with Kate, watch the sunrise, surf, write, podcast, coach a few clients, workout, eat great foods, watch the sunset with Kate and repeat. Have the boys and their friends visit often.
- I battle stress, anxiety, body image, imposter syndrome, and social disorder daily. I am only comfortable in a few places around a few people. If you think all the things I do come easy or naturally to me, they do not.
